January 2009
18 posts
I’m done searching and reaching for you. I don’t know who you are or if we’ve even met. I just know that if you want me and I want you enough, we’ll find each other on our own time. This may seem like a small, simple idea, but it’s taken me this long to figure out. I just want butterflies and someone who feels them too. I’m gettin’ outta the driver’s...
foundheragain.
my day, give or take a little homework.
pretty stoked on today, great mood!
im finally starting to focus back in on the important things.
i have to train the new tech at work tonight, which i hope goes well.
challange day 2009 was awesome, i love those people!
ames later.
no time! workworkwork.
its all fake.
I’m done giving you away, I’ll save you for those who matter most and no one else. I’ve made a complete mess of you and I am sorry, I didn’t protect you as I should have.It was foolish. It won’t happen ever again.
This is a promise.
ps.
im planning a road trip.
i think itll be great, i need away from here.
The new adtr cd puts me in a great mood and it’s way warm and sunny out today. It makes me so ready for Spring.
I was at the eye doctor about an hour ago and he was talking and I stopped listening at, “It looks like you’ve got a birthday coming up, you’ll be twenty in exactly a month tomorrow!” What a wierd thing for me to hear. It doesn’t seem real, and of...
just give me back my pieces.
Who would of thought almost three years later, I would get any sort of advice from you? Not me.
I think it’s interesting how people come into our lives, and leave their mark. Some do it loudly and others more gently. I think every single person who touches your heart, does it for a reason. It’s a big reason why I don’t believe in regret. I’m glad for every horrible...
saldkfj.
itz gonna be fine, itz all gonna be fine.
gotta keep goin goin goin.
this is what’s running through my mind 75% of the time.
i hate everything right now, last night was fucked up.
i keep trying to write how i feel and i can’t, it’s all been erased.
...
I have too much on my mind not to write, but I can’t do it.
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i think im going to be sick.
& im not disgusted,
or coming down with anything.
knots, in my stomach.
i wish i could just disappear for a little while, is that possible?
I wish that someday we could go back and do it...
I’ve been meaning to write this since last year. You’ll never read it. I miss the shit out of you, you’ll probably never know how much. I miss our amazing friendship. I hate that it got all mixed up in more than that. Those three months, you made me so happy, from so far away. I can’t say what made me realize that I could never love you as more than a friend, but one day I...
im so frustrated with myself and it’s resulting in a horrible mood and a bad day.
Watchlovediz.
In my opinion
Long car drives, reading and the constant butterflies have turned me into someone new lately.
I hate conflict. I know most people don’t enjoy conflict, but I seriously avoid it like the plague. I just need to push past it I think, that maybe it’s like learning to ride a bike…you know, once you learn it, it’s easy? Maybe.
I’m scared to start classes next week, I have...
correct.
this is how life is, you give as much as your heart feels is necessary and it’s a total toss up what comes back to you.
maybe it’s what we believe,
maybe it’s how we love,
maybe it’s all just bullshit.
a heads up?
I’ll begin with, I am frustrated. I just had one of the best nights at work…ever. It began with having a family tell me how well I took care of their mother and then telling one of the coordinators that too. Then someone came to me and said ” You really made an impact on that family in there, be proud of that. You touched them. “
That’s it. If I never make another...
i feel strange, i feel good, i feel better with...
im here, im happy.
i have to work soon.
i just want to read, listen to james taylor, bake and end the night in ames…like i did last nightttt.
oh wellzz.
many thoughts.
Sometimes I think too much.
1. Last night did not go as planned and I stayed sober throughout the entire night. But, it was still a great night. Midnight rolled around and I was exactly where I wanted to be, it was fantastic. It was fucking cold though. I wish we could fast forward to February and then skip to spring. I love February, my birthday, my brother’s birthday, valentime’s...