i give up, i’m in general a shitty person apparently. 

ive felt like the easiest thing to do is hang out at my parents house and with my fiance and i still end up pissing off a long time friend whom i apologized to just because i figured i somehow screwed something up…even without saying/doing a damn thing and i suck at any other friendship. why? because i haven’t been social with anyone who wasn’t a sick sick patient who is depending on me to help them, other nursing classmates who understand not having a life and my parents who understand my life in general, in months. i miss my friends, i miss having fun. SO MUCH, IT HURTS.

GAH.

i blame myself. no one else, whole heart-idly. i just want to disappear, so i can stop being disappointing. bottom line.

/End of shitty ass rant while taking a break from STUPID ASS clinical paperwork.

.ugh.